Thankful Thursday

I am really glad that I finally quit being so stuck on my ideas and started blogging. It is for one therapeutic, as many people say. But my main reason for doing it is much more. I want documentation of our life, when you think about it a blog can almost be like a scrapbook, and I so don't have the time to do a real one. We don't print pictures anymore, we show our loved ones the pics on facebook, we don't write letters, we email. We don't call, we text. I don't scrapbook, I blog, and it is so much easier. I want it to be honest, I don't flutter around all day making magical childhood memories for my kids all day, but I try. Sometimes I look at my kids and see two blonde hair blue-eyed terrorist. Sometimes I see two beautiful angelic kids. You know, it is what it is.

I also like sharing thoughts and ideas, and occasionally make my friends laugh out loud. Actually I like making my friends laugh a lot, when Alisha first looked at my blog and we both started laughing so hard we were crying, I was hooked. Lets also stick in a little raw honestly in this, sometimes being a stay at home mom can be isolating. I have friends, playdates, and activities, but it can become lonely sometimes. And sometimes, I like the validation I get from my blog. Sometimes it can make you feel seen and heard.

Mostly I want the documentation though. I like to think that one day I will have some of these printed for my children, and they can see pictures and stories of themselves when they were little. I like to think that one or both of them might want to look up a recipe one day, or want to know how I handled something. Maybe when we are going through the teenage years and they feel like I am the enemy they will look at this and see just how much I love them, and how much my energy, prayers, and hopes go into them. Or maybe look and see that even though they think I am their lame-o mom, that I am a person with thoughts and dreams too. And although I don't like to think about it, if something were to happen to me before my time, they would have this blog to remind them of me.

So anyway today I am thankful for:

1. Blogging
2. Digital Cameras
3. Computers